Nothing.

2010-09-05T15:42:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum.

2010-09-03T20:01:00.002+08:00

I dont like facebook anymore.

Assalamualaikum.

2010-08-31T15:11:00.002+08:00

you made me do this.
sometimes, we fall too much and get hurt lots of time. and sometimes, we just have to give up.

Assalamualaikum.

2010-08-31T13:59:00.001+08:00

last night. fb. her comments. your comments.
this morning. your comments.
now. her comments.

last night. im crying.
this morning. im crying.
now. im dying.

its not jealousy. its unsecurity, its pain, its broken trust.

Assalamualaikum.

2010-08-29T20:48:00.002+08:00

i know that youre feelings matter.
but so does mine. ):

Assalamualaikum.

2010-08-23T18:16:00.001+08:00

I'm stress. Can you tell?
I'm sick. Can you tell?
I'm breaking. Can you tell?

Assalamualaikum.

2010-08-21T20:13:00.001+08:00

my eyes hurt.

2010-08-21T17:31:00.001+08:00

deactivated fb. handphone switched off. offline. Blog on hiatus.
I'm detaching myself from life.
MIA.

Assalamualaikum.

2010-08-19T12:02:00.001+08:00

Twice.
Come on Hanis,you can do it.
(:

Assalamualaikum.

2010-08-18T20:37:00.001+08:00

Syukur Alhamdulillah.
But, nak retake ke tak?
hrmmmm.

Assalamualaikum.

2010-08-15T16:54:00.003+08:00

Alter.

Assalamualaikum.

2010-08-14T11:06:00.002+08:00

Take me to paradise city.
Where I'm far from home. Far from troubles. Far from misery.

Assalamualaikum.

2010-08-13T21:41:00.000+08:00

I just want to go home and just feel needed.
)':

Assalamualaikum.

2010-08-10T14:17:00.002+08:00

My wallpaper in my laptop.
My eyes hurt. I'm falling sick.
And the wound is still tender.
It's just fear. Never pessimistic.

Assalamualaikum.

2010-08-09T15:41:00.001+08:00

I wasn't born beautiful.But I'm thankful no matter what.

Assalamualaikum.

2010-08-08T18:24:00.000+08:00

B.o.r.e.d.

Assalamualaikum.

2010-08-07T12:45:00.002+08:00

Bad. Very bad.
The worst night. The worst nightmare.
I'm sorry MYA.
I love you Ayah.

Dear God, please help me and give me the strength to move on and overcome such rough obstacles.

Assalamualaikum.

2010-08-01T14:26:00.001+08:00

When you walked away, I count the steps that you take.
I miss you.

Assalamualaikum.

2010-07-31T15:12:00.001+08:00

" If she doesnt call you [ Its because she is waiting for you to call her ]
When she walks away from you mad [ Follow her ]
When she stare’s at your mouth [ Kiss her ]
When she pushes you or hit’s you [ Grab her and dont let go ]
When she start’s cussing at you [ Kiss her and tell her you love her ]
When she’s quiet [ Ask her whats wrong ]
When she ignore’s you [ Give her your attention ]
When she pull’s away [ Pull her back ]
When you see her at her worst [ Tell her she’s beautiful ]
When you see her start crying [Just hold her and dont say a word ]
When she’s scared [ Protect her ]
When she lay’s her head on your shoulder [ Tilt her head up and kiss her ]
When she tease’s you [ Tease her back and make her laugh ]
When she doesnt answer for a long time [ reassure her that everything is okay ]
When she look’s at you with doubt [ Back yourself up ]
When she say’s that she like’s you [ she really does more than you could understand ]
When she grab’s at your hands [ Hold her’s and play with her fingers ]
When she bump’s into you [ bump into her back and make her laugh ]
When she tell’s you a secret [ keep it safe and untold ]
When she looks at you in your eyes [ dont look away until she does ]
When she misses you [ she’s hurting inside ]
When you break her heart [ the pain never really goes away ]
When she says its over [ she still wants you to be hers ]
When she repost this bulletin [ she wants you to read it ] "

I'm bored. I'm stressed. I'm hungry.
Like that's anything new.

Assalamualaikum.

2010-07-29T19:10:00.002+08:00

Today's composition title is " Falling ".
My story?
Everything that's defining my day today.

Assalamualaikum.

2010-07-22T18:10:00.002+08:00

If you treasure your relationship, you'll take an initiative to do whatever you have to do to save it. Sometimes, its not worth letting it go just like that.
I'm glad and thankful for not being an idiot and let it all go like that.
Thankyou MYA. Thankyou God.

Assalamualaikum.

2010-07-22T11:45:00.000+08:00

GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY FUCKING BLOG.
not coming on saturday. screw oral workshop.

2010-07-22T11:20:00.004+08:00

If being happy for you is not right, what is ?
We lost it.

4 more days.

2010-07-22T11:18:00.002+08:00

It's okay Hanis.
It's time to let go, and let the rough waves take you wherever it wants to.
he doesn't know. no one does. just God.

Assalamualaikum.

2010-07-12T20:44:00.002+08:00

"Be immature with a matured mind."
Met Raimy just now, and I'm glad I did.
It's not easy. Never easy. Never will be.
But, I gotta try.
God is testing me. So, I will persevere.

Assalamualaikum.

2010-07-06T19:56:00.000+08:00

Life ? So far, so good. (:
Alhamdulillah.

Assalamualaikum.

2010-07-02T21:18:00.001+08:00

Life's fine.
Syukur Alhamdulillah.

Assalamualaikum.

2010-06-28T17:41:00.000+08:00

I'm proud of my mama. (:

Assalamualaikum.

2010-05-31T18:27:00.002+08:00

Thankyou AmaChameng, for being there when I need someone to confide to. Thankyou so much. (':
And I'm. Not. Cheap.

Assalamualaikum.

2010-05-28T20:39:00.002+08:00

I'm glad. God, I'm really glad. I'm glad we talked things out. I'm glad for the fact that, at last, reality hit me hard. I'm really glad. And I'm really glad for being blessed with the most forgiving and greatest friends. I'm really thankful. Syukur Alhamdullilah.
(':

Assalamualaikum.

2010-05-26T12:58:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, I'm just sick of life. But thats what life is all about.
I can't wait to get out of Siglap ,forget about everything and start afresh in a new school. I'm sick of fucking secondary school life already. I just wanna get out and runaway.

And I miss you. I miss our talks. I miss our starbucks chitchats. I miss food critics with you. I miss our conversations. I miss having a shoulder to cry on. I miss talking crap with you. I miss hugging you like there's no tomorrow.
I miss you, Nurul Syafiqah. ):

Assalamualaikum.

2010-05-23T13:42:00.001+08:00

Ayah said I drink too much bubbletea. Must stop. Damn!

Assalamualaikum.

2010-05-21T18:41:00.002+08:00

sayang, for you. ^^

Anddddddddddddddddd, it's friday. At blooody last.
Went to have an early start of revision with MYA just now at the library. Seriously, fuck that two humans who were fucking ignorant and noisy. Its a fucking library you know ! Pfft.
Okay, got back results. Uhhh, average lahh.
Thanks Ms L for the novel.
June holis coming. First two weeks of brainsmashing. Third week of half a broken heart. Fourth week of have at least a lil fun.
Olevels, you owe me BIG.

Sayang, rest well. I love you. I miss you.

Assalamualaikum.

2010-05-20T16:55:00.000+08:00

Today, was simply cool. (:

Assalamualaikum.

2010-05-19T13:25:00.003+08:00

Currently in comp lab.
I really don't know what happened.
I guess its true. All good things always come to an end. Specifically, good moments and good times.
Go with the flow? I don't know.

Assalamualaikum.

2010-05-18T21:08:00.002+08:00

Today has been a weird day. A day filled with a whirlpool of emotions. It just comes onto me like an avalanche.
I need counselling. I gotta do something with my emotions. Like, keeping and stuffing them in a bottle and then pretend that everything will be okay. The longer I pretend, the more I'll believe in it.

Assalamualaikum.

2010-05-17T18:11:00.003+08:00

AMA CHAMENG AND SHADY CHANTELLE, I LOVE YOU HUMANS. (:

I thought I had Bipolar Disorder. I dunno what in shit's poop made me even thought of that.
You know, sometimes, you just wanna tell someone just everything. Like about how youre feeling, whats on your mind and all. But here's the thing, you can't. You just don't know how to put it across. And it just kills you inside. It eats you up.You just couldnt put it across till people assume that its just you who just don't wanna tell. It's tough. Only God knows.
Well, just a thought.

Assalamualaikum.

2010-05-15T20:37:00.004+08:00

Baik. A C-grade for English. Okaylah tu. Pass jugak. Left Maths and Phy. Yes Hanis, time for you to pee in your boxers with fear.
CIP today was cool.
3rd Monthsary was very meaningful and incredible.
Happy 1/4 Anniversary.I love you, MYA.

---------------------
edited ;
I should change.

Assalamualaikum.

2010-05-14T19:16:00.004+08:00

Holla.
I'm hungry and so craving for vitasoy. Gahhhh.
Okay, got back a few of my results. So far, so good. Could have been better, but not bad for MYE. Keep it up and work harder, Hanis.
And oh! Yes, new blogskin. I just want a plain ol' simple blogskin. Like me. Plain, boring but sophisticated ( ya right).
I have a couple of dates with a few people. One of them is noneother than my Chameng and my Shady Chantelle. We HAVE to meet up soon. Just us 3. We gotta catch up. I swear, we do. I miss you girls a lot. D:

I wanna prove that I can succeed in love, friendship, academics and life. All with the guide of God and beautiful failures.

And baby, it's tomorrow. (:
Please, lets not argue. Please?

Assalamualaikum.

2010-05-13T17:50:00.003+08:00

No school. And I'm still sick. Ugh.
Well, definitely nervous for tomorrow. Results and stuff. But I'm sure that I'll ace it. I did my best. Insya'Allah, I'll be presented with great results. (:
And yes. I am craving for cookies 'n' cream in love. Hahaha.

2 more days. (: Loveyou MYA.

Assalamualaikum.

2010-05-12T16:05:00.003+08:00

And...I'm back at last.
MYE is officially over. Ohhh yeaaah. Lets not talk about it shall we?
Weeeeeeell, I'm definitely not well. Im having serious headbanging sessions, an impossible-to-control running nose, a stubborn itchy throat and I'm burning up with a fever. All of these are easily summarised in one word : Sick.
Hell yeah. Naseb baik exam dah over. Ishhhh.
And now, I'm ashamed to even call myself a Siglapian. You should know why.

Okay, headbangingsessions again. Shoooot.

Oh oh oh! And MYA, I love you so much. And I'll never ever ever leave you. Tahan tau. Takmu efaig bykbyk. Tak penat pe sia efaig selalu? Hahahaha. And SAYANG! 3 MORE DAYS! :D
Kay Loveyou soulmate.

Assalamualaikum.

p/s : AMA ! besok klua tau! :D

2010-04-18T16:33:00.002+08:00

Frankly, I dont understand this little heart of mine.
I've been screwing up alot lately. Hrmmm. Sorry love.
Loveyou.

Assalamualaikum.

2010-04-17T21:06:00.002+08:00

I AM HUNGRYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.
Malay oral was .......
Thanks love for today. (:
And...

I AM HUNGRRYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.

Assalamualaikum.

2010-04-16T18:31:00.004+08:00

Up to you. You wanna bitch about me? Go ahead. You wanna talk crap about me? Go ahead. You wanna make me look bad? Go ahead. I dont caree.
You blooody black human , you piss me off. Go away. Kanasai.
I forgive and forget. I forgive myself for falling for you, and i'll forget that you were even in my life. Shooo.

Thanks love for today. Thank you so much.

ANYWAYSSSSS.
Two months back, there's this guy. He confessed to his bestfriend that he'd fell for her. And fortunately, the girl did too. Anddddddd, like any perfect romance, they got together. hahaaa. And that lucky girl was me. (:
Happy two monthsary ( and 1 day) sayang. hahahaa. loveyou manymany. And obviously, youre better than Black. Loveyou.

Assalamualaikum.

2010-04-14T18:52:00.002+08:00

60 THINGS A GIRL/LADY/WOMAN WANTS BUT WONT ASK FOR!!
1. Touch her waist.
2. Actually talk to her.
3. Share secrets with her.
4. Give her 1 of your sweatshirts
5. Kiss her slowly.

Are you remembering this?
6. Hug her.
7. Hold her.
8. Laugh with her.
9. Invite her everywhere.
10. Hangout with her and your friends together.

KEEP READING
11. Smile with her.
12. Take pictures with her.
13. Pull her onto your lap.
14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.
15. When her friends say i love her more than you, deny it. fight back and hug her tight so she can’t get to her friends. it makes her feel loved.

Are you thinking of someone?
16. Always hug her and say hi whenever you see her.
17. Kiss her unexpectedly.
18. Hug her from behind around the waist.
19. Tell her she’s beautiful.
20. Tell her the way you feel about her.

One last thing you need to do to show her you actually do mean it.
21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car (if any)- it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.
22. Tell her she’s your everything - ONLY if you mean it.
23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her- if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESN’T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT- so just hug her.
24. Make her feel loved.
25. Kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know

WE MIGHT DENY IT BUT WE ACTUALLY LIKE IT AND KINDA WANT YOU TO TICKLE US
26. DON’T lie to her
27. DON’T cheat on her!
28. Take her ANYWHERE she wants
29. Text messege or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at work {or school}, and how much you MISS her.
30. Be there for her when ever she needs you, & even when she doesn’t need you, just be there so she’ll know that she can ALWAYS count on you.

ARE YOU STILL READING THIS? YOU BETTER BECAUSE, IT’S IMPORTANT
31. Hold her close when she’s cold so she can hold YOU too.
32. When you are ALONE hold her close and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the CHEEK: (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).
34. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her LIGHTLY.
35. Dont EVER tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you’re mad. If shes upset, comfort her..

REMEMBER ALL THESE THINGS WHEN YOU ARE WITH HER NEXT
36. When people DISS her, stand up for her.
37. Look deep into her EYES and tell her you love her.
38. Lay down under the STARS and put her head on your chest so you can cuddle.
39. When walking next to each other grab her HAND.
40. When you hug her HOLD her in your arms as long as possible

MAKE SURE SHE KNOWS SHES LOVED
41. Call or text her EVERY night to wish her SWEET DREAMS
42. COMFORT her when she cries and wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for LONG walks at night.
44. ALWAYS remind her how much you love her.
45. Sit on top of her and tell her how much u love her and then bend down to her face and kiss her while sitting on her.
46. Rub her back—feels good
47. Give her your coat if she’s cold—thats always cute
48. Write letters on her back with your finger—feels good ;D
49. Let her sit on your lap
50. DON’T poke her hard…but if you want to mess around just do it lightly.
51. HOLD her HAND in PUBLIC.
52. Even if she looks BAD one day tell her she’s BEAUTIFUL
53. Keep conversations flowing…talk about anything usually they just go along with it.
54. If their hair is in their face move it out of her face and then kiss her passionatley and gently.
55. Surprisingly sneek up on her and hug her from behind—loves it.
56. Kiss her in the rain.
57. Pick her up like in The Notebook and kiss her.
58. Slow dance with no music
59. Don’t ignore her or be nerveous around her—everything is going to be okay.
60. Love her, kiss her, hold her, and you’ll be good to go. ;)

-was bloghopping and found this. (:

Started bad, ended great. Iloveyoubaby.
Tomorrow!

And oh, takkan melayu hilang di dunia. \m/

Assalamualaikum.

2010-04-13T17:35:00.021+08:00

And by the end of the day, I won't remember how you playfully sulk, I won't remember how you smiled when you look at my picture, I won't remember how much you've made me laugh or anything.
By the end of the day, I'll only remember,

" You tahu idioms? Rubbing salt into the wound? That's how it is when you msg me just now. Bye."

Yeap. It'll stick around. Hrmm. Thursday. Okay.

Hanis, deep breaths. Don't do that. Don't do this. Deep breaths. I promise you, everything will be alright. I promise.

Assalamualaikum.

*edited.
I'm despicable. A disaster. I'm simply horrible.

2010-04-12T14:40:00.003+08:00

1. Less vulgarities.
2. Refrain from gossiping.
3. Refrain from criticising humans.
4. When angry, take deep breaths and dont show middle finger.
5. Forgive and Forget.
6. Stay away from Yousuf. Yousuf = Bad influence.
7. Control your temper.
8. Refrain from lying.
9. Do not jeling.

Its such a warm day. ):
Shall continue to update later. No promises though.

Assalamualaikum.

*edited*
Back. Tired. Studies. Headache. Stress. Misses. Fair enough. *sigh*
My butt hurt. -_________-

Assalamualaikum.

2010-04-09T19:03:00.002+08:00

My mp3 is fucked up. Shit sia. How to survive like this? Tskkk.
Ayaaaaaaaaahhhh, buy me new one. ):
Hahhah.
And Rebecca! Thank you so much for the Swensen treat. (;
Next up, Seoul Garden! :D

Assalamualaikum.

2010-04-08T18:48:00.002+08:00

See the picture above? Pretty, aint she? I'm soooooooooooooooooooo freakishly jealous whenever i see humans like her. So pretty, gorgeous, flawless, photogenic, pulchritudinous and simply beautiful. Yes, I am jealous.
*envyenvyenvy*
Oh well, I'm grateful with what i have. *big big smile*

Anyway, 2.4 km run today. Syukur Alhamdulillah, its over and i did well. :D
My day started out fucking bad, but ended fuckingly awesome and great. Hahaha. Wtf.
MuhdYousufAkmal, loveyou. (:

Lesson learnt today : If you have a bad dream, then forget it. No point thinking about it and stressing your mind out. Dreams and nightmares are unpredictable events which plays in your mind when you die without a final breath. Theres no certainty of whether its gonna happen, so dont think about it. Dreams are like signs. Signs for us to change, do or think. Dreams sometime may hurt, but its definitely keeping your lil mind pumping with surreal and imaginative things. Oh, the wonders of dreams.

Assalamualaikum.

2010-04-07T18:34:00.003+08:00

Tomorrow = 2.4km run.
I guess a good run is cool. Andddddd, i think i'll run with my mp3. Yeaaaap. Better. (:
Schooool, oh school. Once I'm outta sigalp, im gonna comeback, see those humans in siglap uni, and laugh at them. :D

Andddddddddddddd lastly.
To my dear dear dearest AmaChameng.
Amaaaaaaaaaa, kau bad moood nari. Aku takot sia. Well, i've seen that look on your face everytime when something's troubling you. And for sure, school is troubling you. Babe, i know for sure, studies is stressing you out. Without doubt. Ama, I'm worried for you. heckkk, i really am. Like just now, I swear my heart was gonna pop. I was blooody worried for you. Ama, frankly, I admit that we're hardly that close anymore, and im really sorry bout that. Thats why, our coffeebean dates are the only time when i can spend time with my dear chameng.Ama, promise me, that if there's anything that's bugging you, promise me that you'll share it with someone. Be it with Shaf, Shad or me. I dont mind. Just share it with someone, someone that you really trust. Its stupid to say, " dont be stress" because stress is practically everywhere and we feel it everytime. If you're stressed, take a break. Like seriously. Gosh, that sounds corny, but you get the point. Dont worry, there are humans around you who will help you if you need help kay?

And psst, saayaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaang kau chameng! (:

Assalamualaikum.

2010-04-06T16:49:00.003+08:00

I swear she's fucking cute. (picture above)

I'm happy.
(:

Assalamualaikum.

2010-04-05T18:45:00.003+08:00

I need to discipline myself.
I need to start my revision.
Hanis, please. Please focus.

Assalamualaikum.

2010-04-04T12:48:00.002+08:00

Memories with you has been always been sweet no matter how bitter some might be.
IloveyouMuhdYousufAkmal.

Assalamualaikum.

2010-04-03T19:23:00.001+08:00

My blog is in a mess.
I accidentally deleted my previous template. So, there goes my links, my url, my html. Kaput. Just like that.
Bagus Hanis. -______-

Muhd, thanks for today. (:

Assalamualaikum.

2010-03-31T18:45:00.002+08:00

*not going to LOG by the way. Ayah's going on my behalf. (:*

Wednesday. In case, your dumb, today is a wednesday. Hah.
School's as per norm. Sitting place sucks. Thank God Girlfriend is there. ^^
Maths, please be my bestfriend.
Went home with Shady Chantelle. It was raining. Obviously, as a mischievous kid(thats what ayah called me), i walked under the rain and played for a lil while. Naturally, a few hours later, a few headbanging headaches sessions attacked. Grrrrreat.
And you blooody greenviewans, the short pants humans, dont test my fucking patience. Thank You vely much.

And Hanisz, stop sleeping in class and stop reading during lessons!
*obviously,i'll disobey subconsciencely. :D

Y, Iloveyou. (:

Assalamualaikum.

2010-03-30T15:31:00.004+08:00

Edited.
I'm happy. I'm really happy.
I'm lucky. I'm really lucky.
I'm grateful. I'm really grateful.
Thank God, I have you.

Je'taime.

Assalamualaikum.

2010-03-28T00:55:00.002+08:00

I hate to fall. I hate it alot. I despise it. When i fall, its tough to stop and get up.
I dont wanna lose you.
I'm sorry.

Hanisz, fuck you. Go and slap yourself now. HARD.

Assalamualaikum.

2010-03-26T22:51:00.003+08:00

There's no need to type such a long post. Just a few words will suffice everything.
Iloveyouverymuch,MYABMS. (:

P/S : I cant believe my Girlfriend is checking on my bloody grammar. -.- Sheeeesh.

Assalamualaikum.

2010-03-23T22:11:00.003+08:00

You know, I dont label today as a 'bad day'. It's just another day with a valuable lesson learnt.
And honey, your gift is remarkable.
Debate, if you're a real human, i would have done loads of M18 violence on you. :D
I'm worried about studies. 5 more weeks. Of course I'm freaking out. I'm so nervous that I think I'm gonna pee in my fav boxers now.

Vitasoy baby, I miss you and I need you. (:

*I love the way he looked into my eyes and ask 'okay tak?' . But it soon gets irritating after asking that villions of times. hah.

Assalamualaikum.

2010-03-22T19:21:00.005+08:00

Self note :

Hanisz, shame on you. You better grow up and stop making people feel worried about you. Grow up hanisz. Grow up.

Note to Girlfriend :

I'm sorry. I'm really sorry about today. I'm just not myself today. I'll tell you everything tomorrow,aye bestfriend/Girlfriend.
Love you.
And oh, honey, I AM looking forward for tomorrow. Trust me, I am. I'm sorry about just now.
Iloveyousomuchlikebloooodyhelltootlotlikewanttodielikethat.
*Bite cheek*

(:

Assalamualaikum.

2010-03-22T15:02:00.002+08:00

I'm tired. I don't know why. I'm just so tired. Its the first day of a new term. Went home early as I wasnt needed to attend studytime. Been slacking since. Its a monday. A boring monday. I' just so tired. I feel like dozing off during every lesson. And the thing is, I hardly talk today. Hardly even talk to Girlfriend. I just feel..tired. I felt lethargic. No idea why.Its a bad start for a new term. I'm not looking forward for tomorrow. I don't know why.

Great, now I just wanna be random :-
- I'm bloody bored.
-I miss Girlfriend.
-Some unknown human came to my house today. Freak.
-I'm hungry,
-There's a huge chocolate cadbury bar in the fridge. I think its calling my name.
-I miss vitasoy.
-I miss Dhanie.
-I want swensens.
-My ankle hurts.
-It's 3:55pm says my laptop.
-I'm obsesses with Snapple's bottle caps.
-I miss Girlfriend.
-Sex education is nonsense and boring.
-It's been ages since I've point the middle finger. Not planning too anyway.
-Debate tomorrow. D:
-D&T tomorrow. Awww shucks.
-My left arm is itchy.
-I wanna grow a pair of wings and fly.
-I miss Girlfriend.
-71 % batt in my hp.
-I wanna watch vintage cartoons.
-Is there any homework?

I feel useless. Hah.
And at last, a long but ridiculous post. Yeap.

Assalamualaikum.

2010-03-20T11:34:00.002+08:00

At 6am in the morning and a whirlpool of feeelings and emotions drowned my heart.
I felt 'S' anger. I felt 'L' pain. I felt 'Y' love.
Nowadays, life is quite unpredictable. Too unpredictable. But I guess that what makes the world go round and our soul perservering to see tomorrow.

And debate, I'm gonna tame you. You better watch out.

* I love the way he whispers 'Iloveyou' into my ears.

Assalamualaikum.

2010-03-19T19:15:00.002+08:00

Finishing homework soon. Alhamdullilah.
Girlfriend cut his hairrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. Hahaaha. So boyboy sia. Takpe , masihhh Hand-*pause*-some. ^^

* I love the way he put his arm around my waist when unknown male humans looked at me.

Assalamualaikum.

2010-03-15T20:47:00.003+08:00

Happy 1/12 Anniversary love.
Je'taime.

Assalamualaikum.

2010-03-12T19:45:00.003+08:00

"Everyone knows they're going to die,but nobody believes it. If we did, we would do things differently." -Morrie Schwartz.

End of term 1. Holidays have begun. Started on holiday homework already. Happy with results. I miss Girlfriend already. D:
Debate is taking half of my holidays. Studies' taking the other quarter. Freedom is taking a single tiny part. ); I needa break. I needa breathe. I need Girlfriend.

p/s : I'll miss you Pak Long. May your soul rest in peace. )':

No more 'Au Revoir' huh? Hrmmm.

Farewell.

2010-03-11T20:52:00.002+08:00

Monday.

I like emphasizing on the Monday. hahaha.
Holidays attacking soon and im choking for air. Studies are killing me. Its bloody awesome as to how I manage to still survive today. Yay me. Girlfriend is obviously reading this now, kann? How predictable.
Imma lucky girl. You know why? Because I have a soulmate who actually thinks that my flaws are one of the most beautiful thing on earth. Je'taime.

Au Revoir.

2010-03-10T17:54:00.000+08:00

I'm happy today. I think.

Au Revoir.

2010-03-09T20:49:00.002+08:00

Holidays are coming. Okay wait, actually not much of a holiday lahh kan? Tskk. Oh wells. And and and, i cant wait for monday. Kay, go ahead and laugh. Hahahaahaa.

Au Revoir.

2010-03-06T21:11:00.000+08:00

Je'taime. (:

Au Revoir.

2010-03-05T21:00:00.003+08:00

Holla. Today, unfortunately is not really a great day for me. So what if I got awards during Honours Day? So what if i got the best speaker award? Who the blooody fuck cares.
My day ended with a sour note, and duh, I hate it. I abhore it. I despise it.
I dont get it, why the fuck do humans have to lie whenever i asked them, 'are you okay?' and they go ,'ya, im fine' when actually they're OBVIOUSLY not. I dont get it. Blame me for being petty, but i dont give a fuck.
You know what Hanisz, just shut up. Just shut the bloooody fuck up. Trust me, no one wanna hear your voice, Hanisz. So shut up.

Bye.

2010-03-03T17:14:00.002+08:00

Hello. School is 'awesome" huh?
Pfft. And the weather, my gooodness. March is starting off bad man.
Debate and D&T and studies and everythingggggggggggggggggg.
Kay. bye.

Au Revoir.

2010-02-22T18:59:00.003+08:00

School is showing me no mercy. Awesome. And hey, I'm taking baby steps in turning into a better human. Awesome again. \m/
Damnit. Once June comes, I'm so gonna throw my D&T stuff away and scream, " So long you bloody screwshit D&T ! "
Heck, I cant wait for that moment to come.

Au Revoir.

2010-02-16T20:58:00.002+08:00

Positive.

I'm glad, at last, you're out of my life, and,
I'm glad, at last, you're in my life.

Dorkbrains huh?

Au Revoir.

2010-02-13T11:29:00.002+08:00

I'm just 16, and I'm already tired. This shouldn't be the case.
I find myself petty. Maybe he was right. Mayeb I did change. Change for the worse. Maybe I've turned into a bitch now. Hrmm. Who knows?

Au Revoir.

2010-02-05T22:09:00.002+08:00

WE NALIED IT,SUCKAS.

1st round of interschool debate was today,and we WON against Manjusri Sec. goood job Manjusri,though. Feeefit and Keegan, I'm superduper proud of you guys. We were superbly confident that we're gonna lose, esp since I screwed the Reply Speech, but hey! we nalied it! And I was the Best Speaker. Hahaha. I swear I was gobsmacked. Hahaa.
Thank you Rebecca, Ms Leanna, Ms Chin, and the rest of the debate team and supporters.

Baik Siglap.

*pics in Facebook.

Au Revoir.

2010-01-30T16:22:00.003+08:00

It's no longer an easy task anymore. Thank God for my pack schedule. At least it'll keep my mind of you. Frankly, I wish I hadnt met you.
It keeps coming back like a boomerang.No matter how hard I throw it away, it keeps coming back.
To tell you the truth, it hurts and the heaviness in my heart is painful and excruciating. But, it's the risk I gotta take.

So do you want me to lie, or tell the truth?

Au Revoir.

2010-01-27T17:45:00.003+08:00

I'm tired. I'm really tired. I'm really really tired.

Au Revoir.

2010-01-24T11:31:00.006+08:00

Turning Point.

21 January-23 January was the biggest turningpoint in my life thanks to Superteen. If your school doesnt have that, then I pity you. Alot. The 3 whole days made me realize who I really am, who's the most important in my entire life and helped me to move on from the past. It made me realize my hidden dreams, it made me realize what a monster I've been all this while and thanks to these realizations, I can change for the better. There was laughter and smiles but most importantly tears. For two whole days, I cried during this workshop. It was my very first time crying my heart out in my entire life. Thus, this is what I wanna say;

I'm Hanis, and I'm 16. I believe in myself that I'm an attractive and beautiful teen. I want to be a professional psychologist and a lawyer. I want to be a millionaire and be a successful person when I grow up. I am a single and incredibly happy teen. I feel blessed for the family and friends I have. I wanna thank my parents for everything they had done for me.Everything. And lastly,
I believe I'm Champion, A hero and A Legend.
If you're laughing right now reading this, thinking 'What the fuck? This girl is nonsense.' Then you know what?

SO WHAT?

Thank you Superteen for opening my heart,mind and soul.
Thank you Doctor Ernest,Ken and Peter.

(':

Au Revoir.

2010-01-20T16:58:00.002+08:00

Once bitten,Twice shy. Not.

A wise person would have the 'Once bitten, Twice shy' mantra at situations like this. But unfortunately, I'm not that much of a wise person. And the result of such ; Another heartbreak.

A few lessons learnt today :-
- When your parents advice you something, listen. Don't get angry. Because they tend to be 99.99% true most of the time.
-Once broken, Always broken.
-There's always a price to pay when it comes to love.

There is this unbearable feeling in my heart. It's killing me. But yea, whatever.
At times like this, I prefer not to be symphatised. Because I dont deserve one. Duh.

Au Revoir.

2010-01-18T16:38:00.003+08:00

Old, but not that old.

It's my birthday today! And terence also lahh. Hahaha. Well, since it's a 'special' day, lets just keep the post positive and short.
Well, thank you so much for the presents and the wishes people! No words can describe how thankful and blessed to have you guys. Love you humans.

Au Revoir.

2010-01-17T10:39:00.002+08:00

For One More Day.

TERENCE ! TOMORROW! ^^

My dear sis, be patient and never ever lose sight of hope.

Au Revoir.

2010-01-16T12:33:00.004+08:00

Cant Wait.

OH, MORRIE, MITCH ALBOM AND RANDY PAUSCH, I LOVE YOU.

Yesterday's CCA Day was incredibly awesome. Hardly even forced the sec 1s, instead, just walk around, shout nonsensical stuff and laugh at people. Why? Cause that'll be the last time I'm ever gonna do that in Siglap. Awwwww. Zip.

Well, collecting bursary in a few hours time. Gahhhh, so late mannn. Damn lazy. Tskk.

And all I can say is that, it can wait. If you're sure about it, then we can definitely wait.

AND TERENCEEEEE !! 2 MORE BLOOOODY DAYSS!! *screammmmms!*

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edited.

Bursary crap is over. Got 400bucks bayybehh!
HAHAHA.
And Syukur Alhamdulillah, everything's back to normal. For me that is.
Oh ! New blogskin aye? Hahhaa.

Lastly to sis - I wont argue with you. You wanna call me a bitch? I dont care. Never ever compare me with you. Cause we're different. Extremely different. So you better be thankful for that.

Au Revoir.

2010-01-14T06:19:00.002+08:00

BusyBuzzy.

Busy preparing for O's. A good head start is relevant esp for this critical year.
Definitely looking forward for Superteens workshop. I just cant wait to get my emotions tangle.
And at times, you need your bestguyfriends by your side, instead of your bestgirlfriends. Its just natural.

And Mama, Ayah, I love you. )':

Au Revoir.

2010-01-10T14:23:00.001+08:00

Two Thumbs Up.

Yesterday was my first best fun and memorable day in 2010. Syukur Alhamdullilah.

Au Revoir.

2010-01-08T06:21:00.001+08:00

BOOHOO!-.-

Yesterday was the first bad sucky day for me in 2010. Hope today will be better.

Au Revoir.

2010-01-07T06:15:00.002+08:00

How bout that?

Blooody hell, I seriously hate this high metabolism of mine. Like seriously yes. And I'm getting pissed whenever people started to say that I dont eat and pester me to grow fatter. It is really getting on my nerves. I eat more than you think but this is just the way my body work, so deal with it. Dont start saying that I dont eat and shits like that when you dont even know my eating lifestyle. I am shizzyly skinny and what? You think I like it? DUH NO. So please humans, just stop it. I swear, sometimes it sound more like an insult than a simple comment-advice.

Uhh. Im starting the day by grieving. -.-
Great. Just simply wonderful.

Au Revoir.

2010-01-04T14:19:00.004+08:00

First Day Jitters.

Yes, I had the first day jitters today. Hahaah. Wanna know something? I was so psyched to go to school that I find it tough to sleep. Managed to shut my eye at 4am and woke up LATE FOR SCHOOL at 7am. HAH. Hows that for the first day of school huh?!
Hahahaa. Went to school with my hair dripping wet (of course i mandi lahhh),and when I reached the school gate, Mr H was pestering me to run to class. Hahaha!
And heck, I forgot that now class tingkat 4. Hahaahhaa. Lecehhh. Hhahahaha.
I wanted a big entrance for school, well, I got it. haahahha.

Sat beside Haziq, which is okay, better than other noobs kan? hrmmm, yeaaaaaaap.
And fuck, teachers are really good in getting your mind cracked up about O levels.
Ugh. O levels. The horror!
Hah,kay.
I must FORCE myself to not use this despicable yet addictive laptop of mine.Yes i should.

My 3 targets which I wrote down in class :
1. improve mathematics ASAP.(from C6 to B4?)
2. restrain from using the laptop.(1.5 hrs per day.)
3. less vulgarities. (instead of saying FUCK, say SHIZZY.)

Yes, my targets are simply magnificent.

Ahhh fuck, homework on the first day already. Eh! I meann, shizzy! Ahhh fuck.

Au Revoir.

2010-01-03T20:48:00.002+08:00

School.

School.
Tomorrow.
*screammmmmmmmms!*

Au revoir.

2010-01-02T18:54:00.002+08:00

New Year.

Pssssst pssssssst.
Its 2010 at last.
Gooodbye 2009 and hello 2010.
Well, like i said, its a new beginning.

And oh, fireworks was spectacular, sleepover was awesome and being drunk with milo was brilliant.

Its 2010, i wanna be a better person and change for the better.

Now, budak budak, school's reopening soon. Go get ready and please sleep early.Hahahhaha. Lkke as if im gonna do that.

p/s : should I start a countdown for the 18? *wink*

Au Revoir.

2009-12-27T16:02:00.002+08:00

Wake Up.

I dont think I can rely anymore with blogger. I think I'm kinda sick of people knowing my life. -.-
For now, just a simple notebook diary will do.
Will blog again maybe during NewYear? We'll see.

Reality check : Less than two weeks to accomplish target.

Au Revoir.

2009-12-26T13:48:00.002+08:00

Mumbles.

*coughcough*

Sup.Throat is still the same, even after I've drunk more than 10 glasses of water for the past few days. Tskkk.
As per usual, homie again. Ohh wells. Better than nothing.
You know, recently I've realised that this month is a month where heartbreaking tales and stories are carved in one's heart. Its quite saddening huh? trust me, I've been much more worst than you. Well, in this 5 days left of the entire year, just sympathise yourself. Go cry, mourn, grieve, shout,complain , whatever. But when the clock strike midnight on the 31st december,welcoming 1st January, then you gotta sober up, like MAJOR sober up. Its a new start, a new year, a new beginning. There's always a beginning in a starting and also the ending. (:

And psst, I've doen my homework. *wink* Well, not all but only the ones which I wanna do, *winkwink*.

Au Revoir.

2009-12-24T14:22:00.002+08:00

CoughCough.

Throat is still the same. Damnit. And heck, now I'm hooked with Sorority Life in facebook. Baikk uh eh. -.-
I dont care if I haven't even finished my homework, but heck, please, I want school reopen. Like fast.

Au Revoir.

2009-12-23T13:39:00.001+08:00

Shit.

Faggot. I think I'm falling sick. ):

Au Revoir.

2009-12-22T14:16:00.002+08:00

No Worries,

At the end of the day, we tend to grieve and mourn about the sad events that had happened instead of cherishing and smiling about the happy events. Now that's just sad.

p.s : I Love Avatar. No doubt. I wanna watch again. (:

Au Revoir.

2009-12-20T14:03:00.002+08:00

Snagger.

Last night I realized that I was still not over toot. Yeaaaaaaap, goshh, I didnt know it got such a huge impact against me. Fuhhh.
Oh wells. 15 more days till school reopen. Heckkkk, faster lahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

Au Revoir.

2009-12-19T15:06:00.003+08:00

Not.

Hi. The previous post was crap wasn't it? Oh wells. Well, I'm starting to dislike fridays. Hahaa, because, it so happens that lots of 'things' always happens on a friday. Hah, weeeeeeiiiirrrrrrddddd.
Okay, I've done my freaking chemistry (at last) and my recount is almost done (i think) , so then I'll start on Malay. I know, so google right? Pfft, trust me, I need all the distractions as possible. Haha.
Okay, this is weird. Whatever.

And for the gazillion times, it's not YOUR fucking fault, its not HIS fucking fault, it's not HER fucking fault, it's NO ONE'S fucking fault. So just give it a rest. If you still wanna blame someone, then blame me or just blame fate.
If I ever, EVER, hear another 'I'm sorry' about this matter, I SWEAR, you'll get five fucking smacks from me. And heck, you can count on it.

Now bugger off.

Au Revoir.

2009-12-18T12:59:00.004+08:00

Cliché.

Once, there's a short story that is yet to be finished. It goes like this ;

Silence crept around them like a lioness creeping before its prey, just moments before it pounces and rip the heart off its prey. They were at the place where they first met. The place which hold many sweet and bitter memories. A memory is carved in every stone and in every tree there is. It was just silence and sweetbitter memories that surrounded them-him and her.

"I need to see you. Actually, there's something I want to talk to you about.." his deep and alluring voice flooded her ears.

She clenched her fist, afraid of what that is to come. Her heart skipped a beat, then it begin to beat faster. It begin to beat so furiously that she bet that he could see her heart beating through her chest. She bit her lower lip, a habit which she always do whenever she feels nervous. She slowly moved her hands to her chest, feeling for the hard,cold metallic necklace that he had once given to her, She felt for it, then held on. Slowly, she look up to meet her lover's gaze. Their eyes met and each of their heart throbbed harder, Each of their conscience begin to cry and whisper into their hearts asking, "Are you ready?"

Suddenly, he took out a gun from behind his back and begin to toy it in his sweaty palms. It's metallic skin glisten as his sweat smudged on it. He looked into deeply into her eyes where he sees her soul crying. She looked back at him in the eye, with a smile in her face. She had seen this coming. So clear and true, just like how she had imagined. It seems like her instincts and her gut-feelings has been true all along, it was just her heart who's so stubborn and refuse to acknowledge it. She continued to look straight into his eyes, still a smile on her face but eyes brimmed to tears. She had seen this coming, so why does her heart still aches despite her hunch that it was going to happen?

He slowly lifted his arm and pointed the gun, directly at her heart. He was shaking. A mixture of thoughts and feelings flooded his mind like a tsunami. He started to cry, his hands begin to shake but his stand and position was still firm. She couldnt bear to see her loved one in misery, to be shaking with fear and pain. she then slowly took a step closer. A step closer to never ending pain, a step closer to regret, a step closer to her soulmate.

Her eyes never left his eyes, and with a dying smile, she said,"Do it."

He begin to wither but he still held on tight. His fingers began to play around the trigger and then ....

The ending is still yet to be confirmed.
There are 3 ways it could end ;

1. He shot her and she dies.
2. He didnt shoot her. Instead , he broke down and they mend their r/s and blablabla.
3. Others.

Hrmmm. weeeeeeeiiirrrrrdddddd.

Au Revoir.

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edited,

wanna know the ending? well, its option no. 1.
he shot her. though it hurts alot, its always for the better.
its easy to be done, but tough to withstand the pain.
but no worries, imma strong girl right? i can do this. heck, of course i can do this.
if i can kick fucking ass shit, why cant i go through this?
Aiyoyo thambi.

2009-12-15T01:08:00.002+08:00

Whatever.

I'm weird. Yes, Imma weird person. Hrmmm. 4monthsary already. Hah, fast or slow, I also dont know. Anyway,yesterday was fun. Slept at 0615am this morning and woke up at 1530pm this afternoon. Not bad aye? Cousin, sis and I couldnt sleep, got hungry and thus called Mcddelivery and the turtle delivery guy came with our breakfast at 4-5am in the morning. Awesome shizzy. I can't sleep. I dunno why. Hrmmm.
Going home tomorrow, or should I say today. Yea whatever, I'm going home soon. Yay [in a bored tone].

Anytheways, read Bimbs blog just now. It actually got me thinking. She's right you know. We girls have the tendency to feed our heart with something so sensitive. We tend to ask things which we yearn to know eventhough it'll hurt our hearts badly. We tend to think the negative and let our mind run wild eventhough the r/s is, at last, improving. And we tend to keep thinking about the past which just hurts us so badly eventhough lots of people have assured us that it's not gonna happen again. How peculiar, huh? My theory? I think it's because we girls just hate to be fooled around and we just yearn for the truth. Eventhough it'll hurt us bad. I suppose it's because sometimes we just can't believe it and we just keep asking and asking eventhough the truth has been told tons of times. The thing about girls, we just sometimes need to be slapped by reality to wake up. It hurts, but sometimes its worth it. Hrmm. That's why, sometimes, this 'habit' of ours can improve or even destroy a r/s. It depends, I guess.

Hahaha. You know,being attached, it kinda opened my eyes. Now, I know why people will break up eventhough they love that person so much, I know why people got so negative when they're in love, why sometimes true love doesn't last, why happy couples rarely fight, why couples who tend to argue more last longer than those who argue less, why girls fight over guys, why bestfriends are no longer together because of a guy, why bestfriends sometimes hate their bestfriends to be attached, why some girlfriends dont share their r/s prob with their bestfriends, etc etc etc. It really drove my mind nuts, but sometimes, I just cant help it. Told ya I'm weird.

You wanna know something? I hate happy endings. Because they dont exist. If there are happy endings, then what about 'Reality' ? You know, grown ups shouldnt feed their kids' mind with happy endings nor sad endings. Just let them be. Let the kids' imagination run wild and let them discover for themselves. In that way, they wont get broken badly as times passes by.

Gollywooly, at last, a long decent post. Pigs do fly.

Au Revoir.

2009-12-13T21:41:00.002+08:00

Keep Going.

Two lives, two hearts
Two souls, who never part
We said, we would
For life and that's why
Tonight I don't fear the end of the road
'Cause I...

I keep going
Keep going
I keep going 'til we've run out of road

I keep going
Keep going
I keep going 'til we've run out of road
I just want to love you forever
So I keep going, keep going 'til we've run out of road

We lose, we win
We fall to get up again
We said, we'd love
For life and that's why
Tonight I don't fear the end of the road
'Cause I...

I keep going
Keep going
I keep going 'til we've run out of road

I keep going
Keep going
I keep going 'til we've run out of road
I just want to love you forever
So I keep going, keep going 'til we've run out of road

I said I love you
And that's forever
I'm sure that we will survive

So I'll keep going
Keep going
I keep going 'til we've run out of road

I keep going
Keep going
I keep going 'til we've run out of road
'Cause I just want to love you forever
And I just want to love you forever

So I keep going
Keep going
I keep going 'til we've run out of road

I keep going
Keep going
I keep going 'til we've run out of road

'Cause I just want to love you forever
And I just want to love you forever, yeah...

-Taio Cruz, Keep Going.

Yeaaaap, I'm in love with this song, no doubt. Hahahaaa.

Au Revoir.

2009-12-12T18:46:00.002+08:00

Much Misses.

I miss Girlfriend already. Hahaaha. Pathetic kann aku. Ishh kebab betul. Ohh wells.
I swear I've been fucking emo recently. What the heck lahh sia. Sooo, I'll be a happy goober today. Hahaa.
I manage to take Girlfriend of my mind for once yesterday. Thanks to my dear cousins. Had a free trial facial treatment at New York, ate at Seoul Garden *screeeeeaaaams* , rode on the fucking awesome GMAX rides, and watched NewMoon midnight movie. Yes, I was happy. and am happy. Will be celebrating 4monthsary alone this month. Hrmm, no worries, I'll get over it.. soon. Hahaha.
And heck, I'm missing so many people right now. Heck, I want school reopen now. Like fast. Fuggg betul. hrmm.

Ohhh ohh! Vitasoy and chocolate waffles are calling myy nameeeeee! haha.

IloveGirlfriend.

Au Revoir.